A betrayer, a denier and a thief… I am all of those and Jesus
knows it! Still he loves me. Wow.
John 18 begins with Judas betraying his friend, Jesus. In
the middle of the chapter, Peter denies his Lord Jesus 3 different times! And then
ends with the crowd choosing Barabbas, a thief, over Jesus, the Lord. All in
one chapter. If you live long enough, and it won’t take long, a good friend will
betray you. Sometimes the betrayal will be for money or prestige or some other
currency such as fame or control. Judas gained 30 pieces of silver and no
longer had to listen Jesus speaking grace and tru
th. Whatever the trade,
betrayal happens and it stings.
Part way through JN 18, Peter, one of the inner circle of
the disciples, denies he even knows Jesus. He cares more for personal comfort
than he does for Jesus. I hear stories of people being betrayed and rejected day
after day. And just like everyone else, I’ve experienced both. And it stings
deep.
The end of the chapter paints the crowd evil as he they
scream for the freedom of the thief Barabbas and condemn the Savior Jesus to
death. Doesn’t make sense, does it? And yet, experience life enough and you
will experience someone that prefers a scoundrel or a thief over you. I’ve
experienced that also. And yes, it really does sting way down deep.
All of that is bad news but here is some really bad news. In
the same way I have been betrayed and denied and had friends choose something
evil over a faithful friendship, I have done likewise. Every time I have chosen
the voice of fear over the faithfulness of Jesus, I have betrayed him and
denied knowing him. I’ve preferred the voice of a thief or liar over the voice
of God every time I have chosen to listen to the world over Jesus or tried to
recreate God in my image. I have chosen comfort or the approval of people over the
love of my friend and king, Jesus. The really really bad news is that… so have
you. We all have. We have all experienced it and all have likely treated others
the same way. And we have all traded in Jesus for fame, popularity, peace,
money, sex and ambition.
But that’s what makes the gospel, the good news, so utterly
amazingly beautiful - Jesus knows all that and loves me anyway…. And loves you anyway.
He became the thief, the denier, the betrayer when he took up the cross. He
cried out as he hung there, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me!” Jesus knows
well the sting of our betrayal and preferences. Listen my friend, it isn’t just
that Jesus forgives you and me, though he does that to the uttermost. He takes
our sin and puts it as far as the east is from the west. He doesn’t stop with
forgiveness but continues with restoration. He restores us to a right
relationship with him… an intimate relationship of friendship. He is the Lord
of all, King of Kings yet he calls you and me friends. He walks, sits, loves,
aches with us. He feels the sting with us. And somehow, as we join in the sting
of suffering with Jesus, we become more like him. And know a deeper joy and
peace. To be known and still loved?
“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.” Keller, Meaning of Marriage
Grace for the Journey.
Harrison